Written by: Admin_SheEvo
I am in a chapter of my life that I’ve longed for for a long time, and ooof! I wanna choose myself. Yes, you heard me right. I really want to be the best version of myself. It is time for the little girl in me to evolve into a better, more beautiful and glowing woman.
I have held on to my past and traumatic experiences of my life for quite a long time, ranging from heartbreaks, frustrations, lack, and the constant need to be seen and loved. But today, I’m not that little girl anymore; I’m shedding my skin and giving God the ashes to turn into beauty, and this is my story.
As a young single mom, I’ve grown through pain and turmoil. Pregnancy, giving birth, and raising my son sometimes leaves me in awe of the strong and magnificent woman I am. Dear reader, I’m grateful that you are a part of reading this masterpiece and have taken the initiative to set everything aside and create time to engage with me through my story.
The last few months have taught me my value as a young woman with great zeal and happiness, thriving and surviving to live a glorious life. I want to be seen and maybe be loved. I spent most nights and days questioning Christ about my existence and fate. The fear of being a single mom haunted me so severely. I didn’t realize how much damage I was causing my mental health by choosing to hold on to what I was supposed to let go of for a long time. I swallowed my well-being, ignoring the consequences. I was hurt, my heart was bleeding, and I was so lost.
Letting go: I choose to let go of anything that is not working for me- relationships, friendships and any form of negativity. This season, I’m choosing myself, loving myself more, levelling up, living my best life, growing in all areas of my life, sprouting and becoming the present parent to my son, Zion. I’m so glad that I have discovered my worth; though it has taken me such a long time, I’m so happy I can make this huge step in my life and trust me, I’m not settling for less, not now, not ever.
I am for greatness and all the good things I deserve to enjoy. Oh yes, I will get my nails done, have spa treat days, travel around the world with my son, relocate abroad, afford all my son’s needs, get that degree, attend those conferences that high-figure women attend, acquire those positions that intelligent, learned women acquire, and be a founder of that foundation that would benefit the unprivileged people in my community.
Woof! I’m so ready for this, but until then, I keep trusting in Christ to give me his infinite favour and grace to be there and be prepared for elevation by not forgetting my roots. My past mistakes and regrets no longer hold me back. Well, it’s easier said than done, but I will achieve my purpose in life.
YES, I will make it happen. Today, I’m in a better place than where I was yesterday. See, that is what we call growth, and I’m so proud of myself for finally being there for me and shifting things for my good. I acknowledge that the journey won’t be a piece of cake, but I will do my best. “Everything happens for good for those who believe in Christ and are called by his purpose” in Romans 8:28.
Everything is working out for my good cause. I’m highly favoured and blessed.
By: Lavender Akinyi
