Written by: Admin_SheEvo
Sometimes I wonder why it always has to be me,
The one who is left behind,
The odd one out,
The one making jokes that nobody laughs at,
Never anyone’s cup of tea.
I mean, you wouldn’t understand,
Since my face hides it so well.
You won’t see what’s behind this beautiful smile,
Or beneath this extroverted spirit,
While deep inside, I am nothing but an introvert
Just a girl, a babe who wishes to be loved,
Yet was loved by none.
I mean, I walked away from love,
Thinking maybe I was unlovable,
So I chose to be a good friend,
The one who listens to every bit
Of nonsense you spill without judging.
The one who keeps quiet
And let you say whatever you want.
Well, I became that one.
Yet as I listened to them,
Nobody cared to listen to me,
Or even try to know what was going on in my life.
I mean, I tried to take care of them,
To be their umbrella come rain or sun,
Yet no one shielded me.
Their only payment was betrayal.
Not because I wanted too much,
I didn’t ask for money; I had my own.
Yet a simple “Hi, how are you?”
Would have done the trick.
But again, nobody cared.
I always wonder – why me?
Yet if not me, then who?
Well, I don’t know.
But I do know this
I am tired.
Tired of being everyone’s go-to,
Yet having no one to go to.
Tired of being just a friend
When all I wanted was to be your bestie.
Tired of being one of the people
You barely remember,
While to me,
You never escape my mind.
I am tired of it all.
By: Merci Mpundu
IG: mpundu merci
